-it's a celebration everyday it's a beautiful memory with every details-

2012-01-02T13:26:00.001+08:00

还能相爱，就不要放弃爱。

-任家恺-

2011-12-18T20:34:00.001+08:00

因为爱情是一种遇见。
不能等待、
也没有准备。

-林晓如-

2011-11-17T20:52:00.001+08:00

Expecting to get everything just becos you want it... Nvr think through whether if it's within limits...

做人要有自知之明，不要认为只要想要的，家人就一定得帮你达成。

2011-07-11T22:12:00.004+08:00

Incompetent...

Disappointed...

Depressed...

Mistakes aft mistakes...

When will this tide of difficulty really ends? Am i goin to drown in this sea of bitterness and disappointment?

Where can i find intelligence and merticulous?

2011-04-23T12:17:00.002+08:00

thoughts are running ard in my mind, but it's just difficult to set a direction and pull everything tgt into sentences. but i'm pretty sure i need to get socially active... like NOW~ it's being eons since i last saw the yishun ppl, eons since i sat down for dinner with the bunch of gals.. eons since i meetup with the uni peers for small talks over a cup of something... eons since i last had a good laugh with the choir peers..

i need a social life. working is so depriving me of that.

=(

2011-03-30T22:39:00.002+08:00

Relieved. that was what i felt when i heard dad's voice over the phone from the other side of the world. Almost teared the moment when he said, "i'm very safe here. Don't worry." this is what family meant to me. I know. crybaby. but whatever.

Busy. digesting information and SOPs for my work. learning bits and bits everyday with very helpful and friendly colleagues who never fail to answer my query whenever i have questions. I think i'm annoying at work. Cos i keep asking questions. But, tt's what i am. cant help it. Curious over almost everything.

Lazy. i think it's the disease that every working adult will experience. I'm slping everyday almost before the strike of 12. late night supper with the rest has decreased drastically. not to mention the outing, my attendance is worrying. but, sometimes cant help it with family commitments. anw, they will still have a lot of great fun without me. hmpf...

Annoyed. especially the evening train ride back home. sardine is no longer an issue. the pushing and "self-declared space" is a total turnoff. dont understand why aunties need so much space and refuse to move to allow more ppl to board the train. BO totally killed me. I dont understand why, but sometimes, individuals smells so badly that i feel like puking. THIS IS WHY I WANT TO DRIVE TO WORK. provided i am earning better pay to afford the season parking fee at my building.

Dazzled.

2011-03-14T15:30:00.003+08:00

或许，人都应该学着取舍。
洒脱并没有想象中的困难。
向往的自由，渴望歇息的角落，
选择的还是前者。

It's a closure of another chapter. Life in Neoedge was nt exactly that unbearable as i have always mentioned. It all boiled down to the job nature. As i tendered my resignation to my boss, i felt a slight sadness. But since such a great opportunity came by, i have nth holding me back. The last day at the co, wasnt calm and quiet as i wanted (all thanks to a great colleague of mine -___-). at the very least, i left with grace & appreciation. Of cos my move shocked some who has real high expectation for me, which up to date, amazed me. Seriously, i also dont understand why and how i made them think i will totally excel in this job. Felt really fortunate that i have great colleagues who helped me so much.

anw, metup with the uni peers @ marina barrage for a lazy aftnn picnic & kite flying. catching up took up most of the time. It's just amazed us hw much we have grown from uni life to adults working. Thinking abt the topics and issues that we were sharing were all so adult-y. LOL! i was lucky to get a lot after turning 2 rounds. However, it wasnt tt lucky for tt purple mpv which was trying to be smart to park @ the grass patch beside my car. In the end, attempt failed with scratched bumper and fender. LOL! Lucky rj's vios was not equipped with all these extra stuff and successfully parked at tt grass patch lot. Sad to say, our kite flew away. Thinking abt it, it was also last yr around this time we bought the kite. this yr, it flew away. Nth last huh?

but still,
1 week plus of break before i start my new job. wee-o-wee~

2011-03-01T12:36:00.004+08:00

Tonight, such a beautiful night.
Goodnight.

Thumbs up!
The scene of g-d smashing the guitar.. Wooo~ didnt really expect that..

Top was totally DAMN!

power of 빅뱅!

2011-02-27T11:42:00.002+08:00

i have been thinking and reconsidering about the current job.

the ppl vs. the nature of the job.

was having a hard time at work since last week... was nt able to hit the target and i had the urge to just throw letter and leave the co for good. Why nt? since everyone in my batch has already left or going to leave. I just detest the job nature.. the whole human environment was great despite the fact that i'm a newbie.. they are just so willing to help and communicate with you... like a family... but... the job itself.. huge nono... haix... dilemma..

anw.. i was super amused by my instant reaction over the fone while pitching this CEO from a thai oil company. I have been calling this co for ard 4 days? and looking for the CEO to speak to in order to sell my summit. And he was very hostile when on the fone. keep questioning who am i? why i have his no? (When his face and fone/email details were pasted everywhere on their corporate website) How he donno me (of cos he doesnt!)... bla bla bla.. and i was being very patient and ans his questions accordingly till i find him super irritating.. and..

(i was asking whether the company is dealing with certain oil & gas market)
he: what do you want? why you ask me questions?
me: mr. xxx, i meant no harm, but i just need to clarify
he: who are you? why should i tell you?
me: why shouldnt you?

.......

there goes the convo... and everyone beside me who's nt on the fone, was laughing like mad... i was also laughing and had to calm myself... seriously as a CEO, why is he so freaked out? dont get it...

anw... i am just in the process of job hunting again...

2011-02-06T22:08:00.001+08:00

2011-02-06T15:54:00.002+08:00

why the sudden scene happening in the dream? it's just made me more confused and perhaps, more... unsettled. I just dont understand why and how and what is causing all these. the scene was so real that i can feel the warmth and how bliss and happy i felt.. the moment when i opened my eyes, i actually sighed... cos i noe, it's unreal. It's just an illusion that created all the little hopes and crashed them down onto the floor when reality strikes in. anw, a dream is just a dream... no pt holding on to something that's nt goin to happen.

Long holidays have come to an end... and i can feel monday blues crawling towards me, waving with anticipation. zzz... NO! i want more holidays! I don wanna go back to office and face panasonic... =(

2011-01-29T17:02:00.001+08:00

i wanted to scream all forms of vulgarities.

If you are THIS Great, good. VERY GOOD

scram.

2011-01-20T15:58:00.002+08:00

金色阳光
你有一个阳光般灿烂、温暖的灵魂，将金色的光彩普照到世间每一个角落。你天生善良、感性，凡事都会顾全大局，为别人着想。感情在你的心中占有很重要的位置，无论是亲人、朋友，抑或爱人，凡是自己在乎的人，你都会心甘情愿地为他们献出自己全部的爱，为他们付出再多也没有丝毫抱怨。面对自己的爱人，能够最大程度地激发你灵魂中的母性，你很愿意像母亲一般给予对方最深的关爱与照顾，让他因为有你而感到无比的幸福。

怀疑主义者
你是一个不会轻易相信爱情的人，你很容易相信友情和亲情，对爱情却总是很挑剔，并不是因为你曾经受伤或是对爱情绝望，本质原因是你潜移默化的被灌输一种“**都不是好东西，天下乌鸦一般黑”的观念。

Isnt the paragraphs contradicting each other? hahaha! so much for random thoughts and mundane quiz...

2011-01-20T03:34:00.002+08:00

Went to Raffles place to sign the contract of agreement. Yes, I got a job, sales and marketing executive. Not ideal, but suffice for me as the company deals with corporate events. Not sure whether i'm up to the job, but at least i have a start. An objective for me to anchor my current life. Pay isnt fantastic since it's basic + comms. Most imptly is i can generate sales for myself. On the other hand, it means no slacking anymore. Woah! hopefully i can get use to it. *cross fingers* Anw, was at bugis since 4+. Was at soup spoon reading a book over a drink while waiting for the rest to reach. After dinner programs included window shop at chinatown, Laypak @ Mount Faber and supper @ tanjong pagar. we might be doing random stuff, but it's all these randomness that brought laughter.

I see the agony in ppl facing differing issues that troubled them. It might not be easy for them to overcome. But i hope they will take things to their strive and be better. It's never easy, but somehow, one has to learn to stand on their own feet and look up to the front. Leaving behind wat's past and move on.

我觉得还满好笑。为什么我会把苗头指向_____当问题浮现? 我干嘛会在刹那间给这样的反应? 真的搞不懂自己无意中的举止和想法。只是觉得很奇怪。哈哈哈! 心里也有一瞬间的惊讶。不过，还是算了吧。只是当时的氛围，当时无心的一句话，感叹人生里所缺乏的。想那么多也是于事无补。都已经过去了，就像过眼烟云，让它沉淀为一件无意义的事。

2011-01-18T23:46:00.003+08:00

什么都总会旧的
多么苦涩无奈的心得

2011-01-16T04:21:00.003+08:00

i kinda regret my actions.
mayb, if i was abit more... then, things might take a different course.
but, oh well, what's done is done.

A week of cooping myself up at home apart from the major spring cleaning and occasional interviews. Surprised by the degree of isolation i can tolerate before chiong-ing out to meet the peers. Hahahaha! i need to some time to settle down. to seriously think of what i really want in the future. sitting down at lot 1 Mac was really full of new and innovative stuff that left us laughing like mad ppl. i have great friends. =)

yl aunt is returning aussie, hence the family met up for a farewell dinner @ mouth kitchen, china square central. Food was good, but we were too full. surprisingly, i like the lotus rice! Hahahaha! the bill amount to a whopping 600+ for 12 pax... i would say it's ok since we had a lobster salad dish and yu sheng together with a 6/7 course meal. After dinner programs was meeting up the peers at cine before moving on to dempsey Harry's for a drink.

Dad's returning for CNY. YAY X 100000000000000000000000000

=)

2011-01-09T22:58:00.004+08:00

I am seriously very upset. I dont wish to comment and start a war all over again, hence the statement, "I dont wish to discuss this matter with you." If i dont deserve your respect, then, so be it. Don't push all your harsh comments to me just because of that ridiculous hope that you said you pin on me. I don't need these unnecessary hope that you are referring to. I am open to criticism, provided you have substantial ones. I dont need criticism that pulls me down rock bottom and just to tell me, "Hah! i am just way better than you." If you are this great, then good for you. I dont really care. I know what i'm made up of. If you disagree, then keep your comments to yourself. I dont need them.

the only person i should answer for all my actions is myself. Not you.

2011-01-08T20:28:00.002+08:00

i like how the old element was incorporated into the song... *thumbs up*

2011-01-06T01:00:00.004+08:00

i was telling ky how emo momo i was when i heard tt joshua totally forgot abt me when inviting us for the CNY event at his place... HAHAHAHAHA... tt's like totally random and dumb... like seriously? getting so emo momo over such trivial matter doesnt equals to me...

ANW... mj with the uni peers was again another revelation to me... for i finally understand that i was forced to be Qn's good old best friend.. I tink i kinda regret tt.. perhaps it's all her wishful thinking.. LOL! rj and ryn was totally laughing their ass off knowing my pathetic situation... HAHAHAHA! it wasnt the amount of cash we won, but rather the time we spent together doing something that we all enjoyed.

on another note, i seriously am bothered about my career path... seriously.. wat is wrong with me? i have being slacking and slacking for god knows how many months, going for various interviews.. yet at the end of the day... i'm still unemployed. why? i don wanna continue my lifestyle as it is... i wanna walk out and start with a job. At least an anchor, objective for me to work. Seriously, when will that start really going to start?

真的，那个梦太真实。
为什么会有那个梦?
我不想，
又回到那个时候的自己，幻想着不可能的可能。
我不想，
又把关系搞到一团乱。
我不想，
从头告诉自己不要奢望。
我不想，
给了自己希望，到头来却是失望收场。
我已经很努力了。
但，
为什么我还是在原地打转?

2011-01-05T15:54:00.002+08:00

looking back at the happy times, sad times, good times and bad... in just a blink of an eye, 2010 has ended and became history. Since i had an awesome yr, 2011 will definitely be better!!

life in UB has ended. Throughout the 2yrs and 3 mths that i've spent in SIM, apart from the crap tt we had to tolerate from SIM, i'm blissed with good old friends that never failed to amused me, helped me in times of difficulties. Changing course from engineering to communication was nt easy for me, but it was something that i really wanna. the years in poly taught me nt to follow blindly, but take charge of ur own future. Graduate trip to Krabi marked the end of studies, but pitched the beginning of another phrase in life. Although many things have happened, but i'm grateful that we still stick by each other and have fun and laugh like crazy ppl.

another gift i've received in the yr 2010, would be the yishun ppl... amazed by hw i kinda know most of them through ky before, but finally meeting them was such an experience. The various events that range from simple fare to glamorous countdown, i'm thankful that i have these super tas-on clique that never failed to say "ON! OK!" to any outings that any of us initiate. They may be new friends that i've just known, but never failed to lend me a helping hand and shower me with care and concern in difficult times. I can proudly say, they are ppl that i can really count on.

Yr 2011 started on a happy note, and hopefully this tide of goodness will continue~ =)

2011-01-05T15:33:00.000+08:00

Powerful vocal... GUMMY!!

2010-12-30T15:57:00.002+08:00

2010-12-29T02:04:00.004+08:00

Pre and post-christmas was a total blast until i met with the most traumatized event in my 23 yrs of life... it totally shook me cos it's matter concerning life and death... i didnt expect myself to be in such situation... was totally like a lost soul, not knowing what to say or do.. but i was very lucky to have friends around me at tt point of time to resolve the issue and calm me down... i know it's unavoidable.. but deep down i blame myself for the accident cos i could be more careful, more alert to really jam brake and at least nt allowing the lorry to hit onto the car. Lucky xy was sitting at the other side of the rear.. if nt, i totally cant imagine wat will happen. but at the end of the day, wat matters the most is tt no one was hurt... and i realized how vulnerable life could be due to carelessness...

accidents happened, but i think it's both parties' fault, my failure to nt jam brake fast enough and assume tt the lorry will definitely give way. And the lorry's fault for not noticing and abiding to the traffic rules... i was not afraid of the costs and stuff... but more of the thought tt i was inches away from death, and might cost the lives of my passengers... tt's fear kinda haunted me for the rest of the night... but the more pressing issue was to resolve the aftermath... at least the car's under the car of the workshop with all details taken care of.. a load off my mind...

生与死的一线之隔，说我完全能坦然的面对简直是天方夜谭。当时的情况与心情真的不是笔墨所能形容。真的很庆幸大家都没事。那份罪恶感一直围绕着我，让我不能面对 xy and ky。脑子里一直在想，如果我们没有那么幸运，可能出事的会是我们三个人，而不只是车子而已。我承认，当时意外的发生，我不能正常的思考，不能作任何的判断或决定。想一想，真的是没用。吓坏了的我，真的好像只能依赖身边的朋友们。

真的很庆幸，庆幸大家都没事。

i admit, i actually cried the moment when i saw everyone's msg telling me to stop all the bad stuff whirling in my mind and seriously to calm myself down aft the accident... it may be just mere words of concern, but they totally touched me at the most unexpected moment tt i just cant control myself when i was alone in my room reading them... i really have good friends that i can really count on...

2010-12-17T01:10:00.004+08:00

i guess that's what they call blessing in disguise... the previous job i had was gone.. relocating the office out of Singapore was unexpected... but anw... hopefully next week will bring my some good news... *cross fingers*

anw... coughing my life away kinda sums up everything for now... though it's getting a little better with dbl dosage of cough tablets, i'm still a nuisance in the nite with all the coughing... PARDON ME NEIGHBORS.. =)

2010-12-12T18:06:00.001+08:00

生病了。
咳到好辛苦。
=(

2010-12-06T16:23:00.002+08:00

weekends well spent with...

dinner @ waraku marina square
drink, sing, games and bak chor mee sua @ circular road
shopping @ far east
camwhore @ starbucks wisma
late nite movie @ cine
wee morning supper @ geylang
evening laypak and monopoly deal @ yishun

anw...

i got a job and hopefully it'll start soon.
then, it's goodbye holiday and hello work life!

2010-11-30T22:06:00.003+08:00

if you just realize what i just realized
...

so much to update.. but i'm just too lazy and lost of words to pen it all down...
i guess i've hibernate too long till i'm kinda getting dumber... according to many incidents that i dont even wanna mentioned... end result? i'm certified dumb... HAHAHAHA! i cant imagine the nat lib incident.. nvm.. it's too disgraceful to even acknowledge myself as an undergraduate.. shit!

raining days are just so boring...
i am just so boring...
gah!
LIFE...

2010-11-23T02:31:00.003+08:00

why arent we talking anymore?

this feeling kinda sucks...

2010-11-22T13:59:00.001+08:00

2010-11-20T13:43:00.001+08:00

你是单身潇洒剩女吗

你是一个对生活充满热情热爱的人，不论面对着怎样的挫折，你都能够拿出乐观积极一面的去面对，乐天的你有着直率的个性，注重自我感受。个性张扬的你不愿意过多被感情束缚，相对婚姻你更爱自由，你宁愿给自己时间单身去追求多姿多彩的人生，也不愿意在年轻的时候就埋没在婚姻的茶米油盐酱醋茶里。

你甩不掉啥光棍基因

在很多人的印象中，你实在是一个很值得交往的对象，体贴、大方、负责任、愿意为别人着想。可是奇怪就奇怪在，你的感情生活并不向他人想象的那般如意。究其原因，就在于你过于中性的性格，跟谁在一起都可以处的很好，以至于那个人根本感觉不到你对他跟对他人到底有什么区别。虽然这样的理由会让你很是郁闷，但还是适当的改变一下吧！

slack till i'm almost dead..
i need a new anchor in life, something for me to put my focus on rather than wasting time away.
rather than pondering over issues that are so trivial that i find it amusing how dumb i can get.
someone just throw me a job!!

2010-11-09T01:40:00.002+08:00

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑

i convinced myself to put it all to rest.

2010-11-08T03:12:00.000+08:00

Ｏ型 - 双鱼座

世界上没有比Ｏ型－双鱼座更好的人了。Ｏ型原就有多面性，能使自己的态度充满弹性来应付别人；双鱼座的气质比Ｏ型更柔软。因此Ｏ型－双鱼座的人非常尊重别人，甚至会被他人认为是没有主见的人。

双鱼座的人拥有恰如流水般柔软且纯朴的性格。水是最具弹性的物质，随着容器的外形时方时圆；所以双鱼座的适应力简直好到令人瞪眼的地步。这类型的人内心充满了浪漫的幻想，同情心很浓厚，若是看到不公平的事就一定会干涉.这类型的人，不分男女都有超越利益、名誉的精神，即使明明知道自己吃亏的时候，仍然一本初衷继续下去。若是在Ｏ型－双鱼座的身边，他们充满温情的眼神，总使人感到心平气和。
这类型的人感受性特别发达，就好像情窦初开的少女一样敏锐；这也是Ｏ型－双鱼座的特色。他们只想不要带给别人嫌恶感，因此他们拼了命也会继续保持他们完美的形像。Ｏ型－双鱼座不仅是好人物，也是浪漫派人物。由于他们性格特别柔软，所以在现实社会里，也比其他人更容易受到伤害，容易被别牵着鼻子走，而迷失自己的方向。这就是Ｏ型－双鱼座最大的缺点。若是能遇可靠的人，因而依附这种人，或许就可以减少自己受伤害的机会。

假使Ｏ型冷静、理性的气质较强的话，也许会意外出现爽快型的人物。但是一般而言，Ｏ型－双鱼座的人，都是易受伤，易被流失的性格。因为他们总是太过担心别人的事，因而忘了自己的步伐，只是一味追随在他人之后。这种情形可说是对自己太没自信的缘故。

由于他们这种特殊的性格，他们对于决定一件小事情，也会拖拖拉拉费了一段好长的时间。这样缺乏果断力且意志薄弱，更是他们的致命伤。又因为他们喜欢追求自己内心浪漫的梦想，所以在现实生活上总是摇摇晃晃，没能固定自己的目标，或者老是在改变主意。他们绝对不是故意要这样做，只不过他们那种态度总难令人接受，因此他们或许会被人看做是“不检点的人”。

【对你的忠告】假使只介意旁人的眼光，就会迷失了自己的方向。那麽即使自己只有一个主张，也要贯彻到底。

2010-10-31T12:36:00.001+08:00

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

2010-10-28T00:05:00.002+08:00

明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分
但我相信有點可能

2010-10-25T01:22:00.004+08:00

cant imagine how many movies i've watched just over the past week...

Reign of Assassins- sat @ bishan junction 8
life as we know it - tues @ jurong point
Child's eye- thurs @ amk hub
Paranormal Activity II - fri @ grand cathay
You Again- sun @ causeway point

那样的震撼，让我措手不及。
也让我更相信，期望的越高，失望的越快。
人啊，总是期望着不可能的可能。

2010-10-23T04:26:00.001+08:00

that moment...

everything changes...

2010-10-20T17:33:00.002+08:00

永远不知道
真正的幸福是什么时候降临
人们往往在流逝之中看见瞬间
而那一刻
是最真实的

2010-10-17T03:39:00.006+08:00

i realized that i tend to stone away while driving sometimes..
fully focus on the road and ignore wat's going on around me...
it struck me how i "woke up" when i dropped zh @ his place before sending the rest home aft movie @ junction 8...

i realized how much impromptu decision often led us to unexpected fun and laughter...
where singing with shishi was really a pleasure...
where beer still taste extremely awful no matter how others raved about the smoothness..
where toh had a new name, toh fa cai...
where zh & joshua was targeted by the unexpected guest from the table next...
where foo was totally knocked out after 2 bottles of beer and started to fall asleep...
where foto taking became a chore when u had to smile till your jaws were stiff...

but then again.. in the midst of all these fun.. i missed out a burning issue... JOB HUNTING.. gosh! i wonder when i will seriously sit down and look through than applying random positions.. haix.. =(

MOTIVATION!! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU WHEN I NEEDED THE MOST? tsk! and your friend DISCIPLINE!! BRING IT ALONG WITH YOU AND CHASE AFTER ME...

2010-10-12T23:58:00.001+08:00

2010-10-12T02:37:00.002+08:00

双鱼座的人就是明知不可为而为，双鱼有两种，一种是柔弱型，一种是好强型，那好强型的就会很辛苦，尤其是他们有一种莫名奇妙的气魄，越做不到的事情双鱼座越要做给你看，尤其这种好强型的双鱼女在感情上会非常辛苦，明明就长了一个女人样，但做的都是男人的事情，一肩扛起男人的责任。还有他们也常常在现实跟非现实之间挣扎，有些事情他明知道山有虎，却偏要向虎山行，他一边告诉自己我这样做是错的，可是一边又忍不住想要证明给别人看。双鱼跟双子一样都有双重性格，所以在现实跟非现实之间的挣扎，常常导致于他们明知该跳车却没有跳车，自找苦吃。

i think i should turn towards the other end... speechless... 自己找罪受...

2010-09-27T13:09:00.004+08:00

"Peace?
What is that peace?
Is it knowing exactly what to expect?
Having everything in the palm of your hand?"

have been stuffing myself with too much food and activities... lol! nobody would have expected us to visit sungei buloh nature reserve in the middle of saturday aftnn! initially bro and i wanted to visit the zoo in the morning but we woke up late and it was raining heavily and we ended up in upper thomson for lunch... it's a rather interesting place and i guessed our noise level totally scared all the species away... i guess those who were there to capture the rare moments of the migratory birds were kinda sian-ed ttm... LOL! walking along the trail was hindered greatly by the amount of mosquito tt surrounded bro and i... zzz... in the end we totally gave up the remaining route and joined our parents back at the exit...

it will be another 4 months time till dad's next return..

it will be another 2 days more before i fly to Krabi...

2010-09-22T02:36:00.002+08:00

2NE1 - Go Away Live

OMG! look at how Dara (blue) and Minji (green) danced towards the last chorus..

2010-09-22T01:49:00.004+08:00

muahaha!

i admit.. when dad's back, it seems that the family is one unit again.. the atmosphere seems more cohesive as we tend to spend more family time rather than personal time... it's like 3-4 months gap in between dad's return and most of the time it's like less than a month's stay.. i mean.. sometimes i rather him not to slog so hard overseas and stay in Singapore... but then again... the question of job offers that satisfy him isnt readily available locally...

as age catches up with him and mum.. we tend to reminisce the past... them telling us about their stories from the past... we remembering all the funny and ridiculous incidents that happened when we were young.. it seems like yesterday when these stuff happened.. and now.. both bro and i have grown up so much... the roles have changed and i had this urge to hold their hands more often than before...although he is still as long-winded as ever, still remain as stubborn as an ox when we have differing views.. it's still daddy.. the one who still views me as a child and refuse to let go of tt midnight curfew... -__________-

anw.. just returned from the family road trip to msia... went to Port Dickson, Fraser Hill, Kuala Lumpur and Melaka before returning back to Singapore.. it's fun to drive our way into Msia... and i really admire the traffic rules over there.. giving way was like a common thing as compared to singapore... and it does not only applies to the expressway! even roads within the cities observe the rule and made driving so much more appealing... was sharing the Ahmad position with bro.. even though he's the one who drove most of the time... hahahaha.. moreover, it seems that my family doesnt appreciate the art of shopping! omg.. throughout the trip.. we didn buy a single thing apart from fruits, snacks and more food... Hahaha! saddened to realize that i didnt get a chance to walk around the streets and shop... but what matters the most was everyone enjoying themselves and have fun... a trip worthwhile..
=)

next up would be the Krabi trip with the uni peers... countdown to the days to flying off...

2010-09-21T02:19:00.003+08:00

2NE1 - CLAP YOUR HANDS (박수쳐)

Walk like a champion...

anw.. CL (Blonde) totally rocks!

2010-09-06T21:04:00.002+08:00

the sky has cleared...

at least i know what's really going on..

relief...

2010-09-06T02:27:00.006+08:00

多的是我不知道的事

i was oblivious about the situation all this while...

at least i tried to...

now that others are telling me otherwise,

i really am lost.

i tried to rationalize the situations, the actions, the atmosphere... telling myself that everything happened as it is just because we really are a clique now... it's a mutual trust, a mutual understanding, a mutual... i donno? care and concern?

it's all the flashback's fault...

it's all the comments' fault...

i shouldnt keep running in circles...

things may nt be how it is interpreted...

为什么要突然的提起？

让我不知所措

该死的你。

2010-08-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

恋爱你是哪派大女人

事业派
追求事业的女人，其实是值得尊敬的，因为她们从中表现出来的那种认真态度，让人心生敬佩。不过也因为事业心强的女人，多多少少必备了一些果断与冷漠，因此也常常让人望而生畏，不敢靠近。尽管她们也想着事业与爱情两者都要抓，两手都要硬，可是无论无何，她们在恋爱之中，也会少一些女人味的。因此爱上这一派女人的男人，大抵也是事业有成，有理想有抱负的人，否则，如何压得住场呢？话又说话，如果对方是个平庸土气的男人，事业派的你，也不可能看上他的。

it's a relief that i told ky abt ____... at least now i feel much lighter and dont feel weird anymore... however, i dont know whether what i've said reflects what i am actually thinking.. ky was telling me why not? but i ask him.. why yes? the dilemma kept running in circles.. and i just dont get the reason why yes?

2010-08-30T02:28:00.002+08:00

cui-ed... it couldnt all be coincidence rite?

也未免太巧了吧?
那个颜色，那个东西的出现,
navy blue, white...

anyway... the trip is more or less confirm.. now waiting for qn to confirm her passport and we are all good to go!

突然的巧合，真的有点吓人。

2010-08-29T03:16:00.001+08:00

不算什么爱错就爱错
早点认错早一点解脱

2010-08-26T03:06:00.001+08:00

咦? 怎么这世界已经没有人相爱
怎么这世界每个人都不快乐
怎么这世界每个人都爱别人
不爱自己

2010-08-23T22:14:00.004+08:00

如何能打动你的芳心

细腻的关心
你是一个细心而观察力入微的女孩子，有着柔软的内心和丰富的想象力，安于现状、乐于满足。即使恋人一个小小的关怀举动都能让你感到满满的幸福，对方给自己的关爱都体现在油盐酱醋茶的平凡之中，却比任何浪漫都来得温馨、真实。恋人的唠叨和体贴让你的心永远都暖暖的

i tried to continue the dream to find out what happened..
but the same happens all the time...
i cant see the ending...
perhaps..
this is the beauty of dreams...

To dream that you are holding hands with someone, represents love, affection and your connection with that person. Your dream may also reflect anxieties about losing touch with him/her or that you are drifting apart.

2010-08-18T01:00:00.002+08:00

i know i shouldnt think in such a way...

i know it's nth much more than just a friendly gesture...

but why it bothers me sooo much?

just...

cant shake off that moment...

that feeling that i felt which triggered my dependency...

then again...

i dont depend on others...

and i dont want to...

just let me be who i am...

i'll be just fine...

2010-08-15T23:31:00.003+08:00

i know i know... exams over and i'm kinda lazy and slack to really start planning for the time being before my dad's back in Sept... haix.. bleak future? i donno...

anw.. after the last paper was korean bbq @ Ju shin Jung along west coast with rj, qn, ryn & mark... impromptu decision to visit Haw Par villa... exploring the old and worn-out tourist attraction... moving on to Hagan Daz @ Vivo before heading home...

weekends was spent recharging myself and family issues... one of the aunts from my mum's side passed away and accompanied my mum tgt with bro to the wake... i don really have much memories of that aunt apart from certain small trivial issues.. wed morning was the cremation day... watching my mum crying uncontrollably... i just cant take it... felt really emotional at the particular moment... aft the cremation took place... everyone settled down at an area before leaving the place... mum said something there which set me thinking for a moment...

"推进去，烧了，这辈子的姐妹情也就断了。"

i felt the agony of life and death... but life has to continue isnt it?

in the nite met up with ryn, ky, zh, toh and foo @ dbl O... coincidentally, we saw pierce and his frenz (who happened to be my sec skool mates). Had a little chat with ryn before meeting the guys since they were coming at a later timing... drink drank drunk... i guess everyone enjoyed themselves that nite... not thinking of anything else, not tied down, not restricted, no consequences...

thurs was lunch with bro before settling the car insurance & road tax back in Tan Chong... den was @ causeway pt for movie with ky n zh.. the last airbender was ok for me.. nt tt fantastic as it seemed to be... late nite dinner with foo joining us before returning home...

amazingly.. we met again on friday... had dinner with ky @ jurong west market before heading down to yishun to pick zh up while waiting for foo to reach... toh and joshua joined us @ 900+ coffee shop since the guys needed dinner... went over to the dam... and i'm now officially the apache of A TEAM.. zzz... hahaha! and we all know that ky's waiting for any single chance to reinstate himself... LOL!

sat noon metup with aunt to msia for hair treatment.. her colleague was kind enough to drive us in... had lunch somewhere in this ulu estate before sending us back to holiday inn plaza... spent a total of 2-3 hrs there to get the hair done... by the time we reached Spore.. it's almost 8... rushed home to change and get my stuff before heading down to Pasir Ris for Zeng's bday... drink, drank, drunk... spinning head and emotions overwhelmed me... broke down just that moment was hard for me to recover... i donno why... i just cant control as per normal days... kinda shocked the rest of the A team... especially when i cried for almost an hour nonstop... end result? Swollen and very tired eyes... nt to mention the amount of alcohol in my body.. zzz...

ky was chiding me for holding on to a guilt that i should let go... a guilt that constitute the haunting episode from the past.. i shld learn to let go and forgive myself... i have done well all these years.. and being my brudder.. he's a proud man... i should be proud of myself as a strong and independent woman... i should be proud of myself as a caring sister... zh was constantly reminding me that.. i am still a woman.. a overly strong woman who is surpressing myself... i should let go of the past and learn to accept other's good intentions... nt locking my heart away... nt turning away from other's intention to provide comfort, care and concern... to open up myself more... and nt bearing all these alone... Foo willingly borrow me his shoulders to lean on and cry out if i really need to (though i didn get to use it.. LOL!)... toh told me to cry it all out one shot and i will be fine aft tt... i am amazed by the fact that i can let it all out just like tt in front of them without a slight hinge of awkwardness... i am not someone who's comfortable to let out negative emotions in front of people... nt to mention that they are frenz that i really get to know in-depth in recent months only... i mean.. i kinda screwed up the atmosphere tt nite... but i am really proud to say tt i am fortunate to have frenz like them...

and yes.. i didnt slp the whole nite till sun morning... the guys cant take it ard 5+ and all dropped dead... LOL!! i was practically stonning from 6+... went for a quick shower and walked around the vicinity... soon we left the place ard 10 and went for a quick brunch before heading home...

庆幸认识你们。
庆幸有你们的陪伴与鼓励。
虽然认识的日子并不长，
但你们让我了解，
身为朋友的你们，
在我失落的时候，
能够给予我安慰。
男人女人，
都是一样的。
只要有那份心，
怎么样都可以成为最好的朋友

2010-07-30T00:26:00.004+08:00

i need peace and determination to fight the battle against PSY 333..
this is really bad... i need help!
almighty being! please help me focus! FOCUS... =(

2010-07-23T02:14:00.005+08:00

你的爱情城墙有多高

你是一个安全感缺失的人，假如对方靠近自己，太过于了解自己，你会觉得心里很没底，有一种暴露在大众下的恐慌，但是在你内心深处，你又十分渴望找到一个真正疼惜自己、呵护自己的人，懂得自己真正想要什么。在这种矛盾中你会为自己搭建一道顽固的城墙。

你的心里住着啥小孩

你的心里住着单纯小孩
无论江湖多么险恶，无论社会多么浑浊，你始终保持着一颗难能可贵的单纯童心，很多人羡慕你的纯洁，也喜欢你干净的个性，但也有人说你做作。你不会把事情想得太复杂，甚至思考问题都不会转弯，也因为单纯常口不择言，想到什么说什么，不知不觉伤害了别人还不自知。所以说话做事前先经过脑子想一想吧。

2010-07-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

omg.. fb's being a bitch again.... being uploading one video since like god knows when... zzz... the worst part? still uploading and not done yet...

SHITTY WEBSITE! I STILL HAVE A FEW MORE TO GO... =(

anw.. weeks to come for the final papers to end my studies.. but before tt... it's ktv mania this week... sun was wif mau n edmund... tues was wif ky, henry n xiao pang... kbox @ cck is really cool and new!! i totally recommend that place for future ktv sessions...

still in the midst of uploading my first video... super sian laaaaaaa...

2010-07-18T02:03:00.001+08:00

题目：有一天你因为看电视或打游戏到太晚，以至于早上睡过头。已经快迟到了，只有做一件事的时间，凭你的直觉，你会选择哪一件？

A：刷牙洗脸
B：上厕所
C：吃早餐
D：反正都来不及了，就慢慢来吧

选择A：未来的另一半会是：美丽或帅气又有点任信的对象，你总是很注意异性或自己的外表，所以在一个新场合出现时，大家还没注意到的帅哥美女，你早就已经扫过一遍搂，但要小心虚有其表的人哦。

选择B：未来的另一半会是：可爱迷糊无心机的对象，你是以自己直觉为优先的人。所以喜欢率真的对象，常会跟大家意想不到的人结婚。

选择C：未来的另一半会是：个性好强管你很严的对象，　重视食物代表你重视爱情的实际功能。但这样的你很受不了对方到追，基本上你还是很理性，喜欢会偷偷观察对方是不适合你!

选择D：未来的另一半会是：外表一般但很酷的对象，你是非常自我的人，在爱情中很任性，所以只要一燃烧爱的火焰，就会不管任何人的反对。是相当冒显且危险的个性!

2010-07-18T01:58:00.002+08:00

如果在一个特殊的情况下，你发现一个人好像聚精会神的想着一件事情，你认为他可能是在想什么，凭自己的第一感觉做出选择，得到的也许就是你自己现在的桃花运。

一、这时他（她）正在想自己最心爱的人。
二、正要准备去一个很重要聚会，处在兴奋之中。
三、他（她）在等自己非常要好的朋友。
四、没有目标的思考着，其实他（她）自己也不知道在等什么，
想什么。
五、在期盼外出的亲人早点回来。

如果你选择的是第一个，说明你处在爱之初体验，非常想交异性朋友，又或许你刚开始谈恋爱，把爱情想的非常美好，没有什么心机，更不会去过多的考虑，这样可以很好的去享受爱情的幸福。不过，要注意，此时应彼此多深入了解对方，使爱情更长久。

如果你选择的是第二个：那说明你可能是一个性格活泼的人，喜欢自由，又有很好的人际关系，可是往往这样，表示你还不能有很好的桃花运，不易有稳定的情感关系。真正属于你的爱情还没有到来，要耐心等待，但应注意，千万不要只注重友谊而忽略了自己的爱情。

如果你选择的是第三个，表示你很重视朋友，性格开朗，喜欢不被约束的生活，有的时候可能抱怨为何自己的桃花还不来，其实，只是你自己不知道，桃花运已经到来，在朋友当中早有很喜欢你的人，而且与你很投缘，只是需要你们自己表白出来，这样才会得到真正的知心爱人，应注意把握住真爱。

如果你选择的是第四个：可能不太相信别人，对爱情会有一定的顾虑，害怕自己在感情中受到伤害，虽然很喜欢对方，渴望爱情，但有时还是会保留一些事情，不让对方知道，需要明白，真正的爱情，需要双方的忠诚和相互信任，这样才会使爱情地久天长。

如果你选择的是第五个：说明你是一个很顾家的人，而且孝顺父母，尊敬老人，很愿意接受家人的意见，能把爱与关心都放在家人身上，这使得有时难以更好的投入到爱情上，即使有桃花运到来，也会非常的严格的审查对方，应该注意，于他们在一起的人，也一定要是是爱家并有孝心的人，这样才会获得更大的幸福。

2010-07-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

it still sting the moment i open tt email and read through... perhaps it acts as a reminder... a reminder that constantly tell me how things have changed over time... how different we are then and now... is it me? then again.. i questioned myself... why did i still keep that email? is it because i refuse to let it go? or... i just want to remind myself... the darkest hour and how i just want to throw myself into a box and never reach out... while clenching my fist and fight the agony and sadness...

perhaps it would be better to just stay indifferent towards anything...

2010-07-13T18:11:00.003+08:00

things seems to be a little overwhelming these days... realized and think through a lot and i sort of settled myself from the dilemma.. hiak hiak hiak! am free from troubles and woes and have to start prepare myself psychologically for the last battle before i end my undergraduate studies...

sun nite went to fetch the guys from np to the dam to zh's place... it was definitely full of surprises during the finals... Well done Spain! Although they were not my favorite from the initial stage.. but they have done themselves proud... match ended with me sending wong to the station, foo to his place... and ky to his place before dropping him at lot 1...

sat was RESERVED for mau mau tan's birthday!! Weeeeeeeee! met mau mau at je and took the train down to vivo together... met the rest of the ppl at Jap Gourmet Town... fun n laughter... catching up.. all sorts of nonsense... den we walked to st james powerhouse.. yes.. we did.. but only zh, ky, pt plus me went in eventually... why? the rest had to mj at fren's place... zzz... not to mentioned kun was in shorts tt day... and the outcome? bleeding broken toe nail... all thanks 2 girls who were pushing their way towards us behind ky... -_-! left the place for world cup third placing at zh's place while pt went home...

seriously.. i donno.. spoke to her.. yet.. i decided to keep neutral to my positioning towards her rather than the whole BOYCOTT PT attitude.. i guess she's just nt in my clique and my frequency tt's all... although i admit.. we did had a comfortable chat (ao issue) and she did make the effort to let me know she did change from the previous her.. but somehow, a leopard cant change its spot can it?

Friday nite was MOVIE with eunice dearie aft dinner at Orchard central... omg! DESPICABLE ME WAS AWESOME!! hahaha.. nt to mention all the minions (now i finally know wat the hell they are.. heh heh) was super duper cute... and and AGNES!! she's the most adorable thing with her glistening eyes.. omg.. catch it if you havent! I MEAN IT!!

或许那只是无心的玩笑话。
不过，透过某人，我们算是摊开来讲了。
彼此都是把对方定义在友谊的位置。
不要问我为什么不去追求那份可能是爱情的开始。
因为，我们并不是那么的合适彼此。
不要问我为什么不适合，因为他和我要的好像不同。
或许，开始的时候我有点迷惘，
因为某某因素，导致我们误会彼此的意思。
不过现在，我已经看清方向。
我真的很珍惜这个朋友。真的。
希望，他也是。

2010-07-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

习惯了软弱，心也会逐渐软弱起来；习惯了依赖，会渐渐忘记如何依靠自己。一旦眼泪失去效力，一旦陷入孤立无援的境地，如果变得软弱了，该怎样保护身边的亲人和自己。

　——尹夏沫

2010-07-02T23:22:00.002+08:00

说实在的，真的搞不懂自己在想什么。以为的关系，现在又开始糊里糊涂的模糊不清。不是说好了吗?现在别又胡乱猜测。停止那些奇怪的想法吧!!

anyway... recently has been a world cup mania for me... apart from tt... it's ktv with the uni gang after a middle east cuisine for lunch @ arab street on wednesday afternn... thursday was spent having dinner with bro n aunt @ vivo sushi tei before meeting zh n ky for Karate kid... supper @ geylang before going home... seriously... a waste of money... i mean.. predictable plot tt leaves me feeling a little bored.. moreover, it's lame humor... should have sticked to A*team instead.. At least Toy story 3 with eunice n vin the other day was SO much better even though it left me with teary eyes towards the end...

side note: demoralized self due to demoralizing lecturer and her even more depressing papers... I am starting to wonder whether i will end my undergrad studies with a depressing note or relieved one... *pray hard*

2010-06-29T19:07:00.004+08:00

it's great to have friends around you who embrace you for who you are...

true... i admit... tt's the most fantastic and marvelous thing in the whole wide world.. was talking to zh over Brazil's match @ his place (while foo was slping.. zzz) over the issue of friends.. made me reflect a lot... and i realized tt sometimes.. we just have to fall hard in order to learn... and i am envious of this bunch of guys and their friendship since secondary school... thinking back.. i really lost a lot of them due to reasons that i cant even remember... from a little girl.. to the now woman... i am amazed by how much everyone changed.. but still i am grateful that there are still who held on... embracing for who i am...

失去和拥有刹那的感动
人生有时候像一场梦
醒着的时候睁开了双眸
不如意的很多

朋友和情人来的来走的走
反反复覆寻寻觅觅为了什么
要多少时间才能够了解
其实有你就足够

握着你的手走过快乐和难过
黑夜白昼我们都曾经拥有
人生是没有定律的一种节奏
不如用心去感受

快乐的一刻胜过永恒的难过
黑夜过后就有日出和日落
两个人走不会寂寞
每一刻都会珍惜都会把握
庆幸有你爱我

失去和拥有泪水和笑容
人生有时候像一场梦
累了的时候闭上的双眸
谁在回忆上游

多少的朋友来的来走的走
聚散从来都不给任何的理由
转过身以后才忽然感受
你一直都在背后

握着你的手走过快乐和难过
黑夜白昼每个人都会拥有
人生是没有定律的一种节奏
不如用心去感受

快乐的一刻胜过永恒的难过
黑夜过后就有日出和日落
两个人走不会寂寞
每一刻都会珍惜都会把握
庆幸有你爱我

握着你的手走过快乐和难过
黑夜白昼每个人都会拥有
人生是没有定律的一种节奏
不必在乎得太多

快乐的一刻胜过永恒的难过
黑夜过后就有日出和日落
只要和你一起度过
人生没几人懂我懂得把握
庆幸有你爱我

2010-06-16T22:49:00.003+08:00

why must i have to deal with this again when i have decided to just remain status quo?

anyway... world cup fever has caught up with me!!! yeaaa... tt's right...

dinner with ky n zh @ causeway pt..
train-ed to ky's place cos he needs to bath... zzz...
went over to some coffee shop since the guys wanted to eat oyster omelet...
went to the dam since there's time to kill...
reached zh's place for Portugal match...
left tgt with ky n yang... almost goin home but in the end everyone settled at prata house for supper...
went back zh's place tgt with alan joining us for Brazil's match...

zzz... so much for impromptu plans tt dragged all the way till the morning.. and i was pretty restless for the rest of the day... lucky lect ends at 1045 in the morning..

"you are a very strong person... you knows what you want in life..."
hopefully...
=)

2010-06-14T19:01:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really wonder whether my brother is really spoiled to the core? sometimes i really wonder whether army is really THAT unbearable? and it becomes an excuse for him to get whatever he wants? i felt that his argument for having a bike that is 2nd hand and cost ard 8+k is totally bullshit...

but whatever... i already state my stand. It's up to my parents to decide...

2010-06-08T13:28:00.003+08:00

weekend getaway @ sultan shoal was really hilarious considering the fact that everyone had suffered due to the massive wii actions... LOL! get to know more frenz than the usual clique... and just relax and enjoy the sea breeze was really soothing... started off the day with a heavy rain and breakfast @ west coast mac before meeting ky, hazel n yang at the jetty... reached sultan shoal and the guys started their fishing routine while the gals roamed around the small island... alan was such a nice host! hahaha... wii-ed during the heavy rain... and the rest of the guys reached late in the aftnn... it's bbq in the nite and wii AGAIN... i seriously think that we all had some muscles after the activities... super xiong... hahahaha! den it's back to the fishing spot after a bath and the 5 of us juz chill and wait.. talk and drink... laugh and took fotoz tgt... went back to the chalet when it's ard 5+ am... left the place with the rest of the guys to west coast mac cos they wanted to eat before cabbing home...

the conversation that we had was alarming... and i was quite shocked by comments tat hit me... it was rite to a certain extend.. i did lock it away... but it's solely becos of myself... i did not want history to repeats itself... maybe it's true that i am pushing people away.. but sincerely i just haven meet the rite one.. the one that made me snap out of all this that camouflage the real me from within... changing the topic towards others was a natural way to protect myself from revealing too much.. cos i am just not comfortable to reveal the vulnerable side... maybe ky was rite.. i should let my guard down and start telling people about myself rather than just brushing it away... and not be such a strong character person who's always so "scary and horrible" to hit the spot when talking to others... i know to a degree i am mysterious and complex in other people's eyes.. but... sometimes.. even i doubt whether i understand myself or not... but then again... i don reveal as people dont ask... since they don take the initiative to know.. why should i tell them willingly? maybe they aren't interested in my story... afterall i have always been the person who listen more than i comment... listen to others sorrow and woes rather than talking abt myself and stuff...

sometimes i am not really convinced that i'm strong and invincible... and i know and feel the concern shown to me... i guess it's just the me factor that's all... but i really appreciate for the words that make me think of myself in a different perspective... although it left me in agony for the past 48 hours with tears urging to fall out... but i will be fine... things aren't that bad afterall...

2010-06-03T20:32:00.004+08:00

i just cant believe... tis morning i drove to skool.. and guess wat?! I WAS STUCK IN THE JAM FROM THE POINT I REACHED BK TIMAH ROAD!!! and it was an hour of jam... wat the hell laaaa... zzz... i just realized that most of the time when i drive to skool i will be late as compared to taking public transport... almost puked blood and started to doubt the possibility of a slot in the carpark... but i was lucky...

sat nite was Sex and the City II with eunice.. HAHAHAHA.. impromptu decision to watch as both eunice n i were bored at home.. hahaha!

sun nite was dinner with eunice @ pasta mania before meeting the band of guys... HAHAHAHA.. should called them tt from now... LOL! in the end... i send ky, zh, yang, dx and wong to ky's place for mj... one round i earn back 60+!!!! WOOOHOOO~~ actually i no mood play mj.. was planning to meet them awhile den leave for home.. but.. HAHAHAHAHA... still a long way to recoup my losses at the table.. den moved on for wanton mee for supper and dam...

wednesday was spent with family cos mum had day off while bro was goin to book-in ard evening time.. had lunch at aston specialties @ sembawang shopping center... chatting over the meal before leaving for home... hahahaha...

what's up with all the comments..
things are looking a little haywire & I dont get it...
should not think too much into the situations...
it's all just a joke..
laugh it off heartily and it's all ends at the point of goodbye..

2010-05-28T22:31:00.002+08:00

the other day qn was telling me tt she dream abt me... guess wat?! i ended up slping ard 11+ ytd nite and had a total of 3 dreams... and it includes alot of ppl and her!! LOL! i guess tt speaks abt haunting...

was at mambo on wed nite with the uni peers... 5 10 drink drank drunk... to funny dance steps... to ryn fooling wc up the podium.. to pushing mark n ryn ard was wat we did... dumb stuff... but it was a gateway to let loose and sort of enjoy our last sem of uni life... ahaha..

since i was home alone and bored... i watched two movies today.. Howl's moving castle was an impromptu decision... but it spurred the thought of watching Princess Mononoke... the theme song by hisaishi was a playback into the past... i still rmb watching the movie while learning the song during band days... emotionally packed theme, which is typical of Japanese composers... but he was really good...

日有所思，夜有所梦。
这不是一场普通的梦。
庆幸在清醒时刻，我没有疑惑。
虽然很想知道结局，
但是，那只是一场梦而已。

2010-05-22T19:55:00.002+08:00

1、你一直在奋斗着，努力做个上进的人
　　是的-2　不是-3

　　2、但本质上，自己是个太消极的人
　　是的-3 　不是-4

　　3、感情比金钱珍贵多了
　　是的-4　不是-5

　　4、对于所有的付出，都期待着回报
　　是的-6　不是-5

　　5、喜欢倾诉，但要对特定的人而言
　　是的-7　不是-6

　　6、说话总是很客观，不会刻意掩饰自己的过失
　　是的-7　不是-9

　　7、尽管自己有过失，还是会让别人觉得自己是对的
　　是的 -8　不是-9

　　8、害怕别人知道自己真实的想法
　　是的-10　不是-9

　　9、奋斗的终级目标一定是物质为先的
　　是的-10　不是-11

　　10、觉得贫穷的人说是幸福是可笑的
　　是的-A　不是-B

　　11、自在逍遥比激烈的爱让自己舒服
　　是的-C　不是-D

　A、与生俱来的富贵命
　　你天生就有一种入世的智慧，绝不浪费时间和精力在无聊的事情上，你不会莫名其妙的郁闷，颓废和伤感。在你身上，永远散发着自信和张扬的魅力。在任何时候都是很现实的人，社交能力尤其突出。甚至在面对感情时，都没有一点应该的疯狂和偏激。所以，你人生的成功也需要牺牲很多感情为代价。

　　B、复杂和矛盾的人生
　　你是个强硬，善良，聪明又极度虚荣的人，你身上的这些特点，很难同时出现在一个人身上，所以注定你是个复杂而矛盾的多面体。你常常在真诚的同时，暴露出你虚伪的一面；又或者是在别人感觉你很实在的时候，流露出你虚荣的一面。让人觉得你实在太复杂太矛盾，但在大方向上来说，是个很单纯的人。

　　C、天生脱俗活得潇洒
　　你和别人太不一样了，不是吗？你做的事说的话，无不显示出你是一个与众不同。让人觉得你脑子里就是有东西，而且你并不故意如此，也可以解释为天性使然。但总是总是，在精神上，在想法上，就是比别人高出一截儿，或者你很不喜欢这个说法，你觉得自己再普通不过，但其实你就是一个与众不同的人。

　　D、心比天高的丫头命
　　这个世界让你看不顺眼的东西太多，让你为自己的不同烦恼不已。有时觉得自己要抓牢所有物质，感情是个屁；有时又不顾一切的去追求感情，将所有物质踩在脚下。是个情绪化的人，占有欲非常强，尤其在爱情上，不给对方足够的空间。很需要别人的感情，自己别人对自己的感情才会让自己有安全感。

2010-05-09T20:02:00.002+08:00

this weirdness...

that spurs up since then...

damn! why is it affecting me so much?

i need to just break away...

"i think i need someone who knows what she wants in life..."

anyway... Friday's dinner with mau and xy was interrupted by ky n shishi... LOL! in the end, went partyworld @ civic centre woodlands with them, minus mau n xy... met up with zh, joshua and eric for supper @ chong pang before leaving for dam...

sitting by the sea, feeling the wind, i guess it's the kind of atmosphere that brings people to speak up more willingly than usual... i got to know more about shishi... allowing her too, to know more about the past that i have not really talked about... guess most of the time i would just shift the limelight to someone else rather than myself... i suddenly realized through ky's words how much i have changed. For the better or the worst? no idea. but i would see it as a good change. No doubt it's a rather long and tedious journey, but i have grown throughout the years.

"是壁虎(hu)，不是壁(fu)，避邪啊?!"

扰乱了我的思绪，
影响了我的思考。
我突然发现，
其实他对我，
有着一定的影响力。
该怎么看待这一切的一切?
或许是我多想了吧。
我们应该还是普通朋友吧。

2010-05-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

如果你是一个情报人员，需要获取一份敌方的机密文件，你会采用哪种手法去完成这项任务？
第1种方法：买通警卫，然后假装工作人员蒙混溜进去获取。
第2种方法：利用强大火力的武器直接闯进去截取。
第3种方法：选一个月黑风高的晚上破坏保安系统，乘势潜进去偷取。
第4种方法：花几天时间挖一条可以直接进入保险库的地道，神不知鬼不觉拿取。

选第1种方法的女子表明：
你对于目前的恋爱感到徬徨和矛盾，好像少了点安全感，既期待又怕被伤害，不知道该勇敢的去爱，还是悄悄的走开。虽然你的他条件并不差，可是你总是没办法把心交给他，要得到完全信任，似乎还要再加把劲儿。这种女子往往容易情感上失之交臂，极容易落入剩女行列。

郑博士温馨提醒： 看来你的爱情是经常处于害怕和混乱的状态，其实你可以在调理桃花风水中，运用水晶中玫瑰碧玺的能量，去看清对方是否真的适合自己。玫瑰碧玺就像一位守护天使，善解你的心意，帮助你选择一位合适自己的对象，让你俩走进美满的情感之中。玫瑰碧玺是不可多得的爱情水晶，让你时常浸泡在幸福爱情里。

选第2种方法的女子表明：
你的恋爱哲学是：只要是我喜欢，什么都可以。你不排斥条件比你差的男人、跨国恋情或忘年恋也毫无畏惧，反正只要对上眼，你的爱情就立即像一团火般燃烧起来，别人都认为你够大胆奔放。不过，你的爱情里过于冲动，所以也容易来得快去的也快，有时难免财色两空。

郑博士温馨提醒： 看看平常你说话的时候是否过于随和？甚至给人傻傻呼呼的形象？如果是那么你不妨在调理桃花风水中，试试佩戴粉晶，让它为既你增添一股亲切感，又不失理智才华。过滤掉那些不怀好意亲近你的“坏”男人，真正找到你的真爱。以粉晶制成的脚链能让你变得即可人又可亲，又更多些聪明才智。

选第3种方法的女子表明：
很可惜，郑博士认为你的爱情观还不够及格线，估计只有初中生的水平。你会经常表错情而不自知，搞不清楚什么是友情还是爱情？同时，遇到爱情来临，又往往会左顾右盼、犹豫不决。
难道你一辈子只能和自己谈恋爱？其实如果你学懂去充实自己，那么，你就会大大提升你的情感，没有男人会喜欢“低水准”的女人。

郑博士温馨提醒：在调理桃花风水中请不妨尝试用用白水晶的能量，先让自己变得理智起来，你才能真正了解自己想要的是什么爱情，也就不会表错情了。

选第4种方法的女子表明：
谈恋爱让你感到世界不再一样，因为堕入了爱河的你，会一心一意去追求童话般的情爱，幻想跟恋人是一对天仙配，过着无忧无虑的爱情生活，并且常常陷于自我陶醉的境界，显得有点不切实际。

郑博士温馨提醒： 如何让自己变得更现实些？在调理桃花风水中请不妨选戴发晶，人也会更为清醒和踏实，也不易在情场中上当受骗。有什么比在情场中受骗上当更痛苦？发晶能让你定心下来，寻求踏实的爱情才可获得幸福。

有些人堕入爱河之时，会变得容光焕发，有些则满面焦虑，表现相差极大，为什么有这种情况呢，就是因为大家对爱情的态度不一样，投入一段恋爱关系之后，爱情便会让你发生变化，个人气场也会有所转变，所以你可运用适合自己情况的水晶能量，对症下药。

2010-05-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

可笑到想要
你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜

2010-05-03T22:45:00.003+08:00

exams have been a bitch for the past week... finally i'm done with spring'10. And guess what? i had to return to SIM on a public holiday to sign some contract which sits in the files of god-knows-who for almost 2 years... i wonder why we paid so much fees for...

dim sum after the paper was spent at some restaurant along bk merah with the uni gang... though the food was norm... but it's the company that matters the most...

thursday was spent drinking with the uni grp again at wine collection... champagne, red wine, mushroom pizza and assorted cocktails... it's nice to chill out just like that... topic of ah piaooo~~ came up again with various stories shared among...

friday was shoe hunting with joy at far east... can u imagine that i actually convinced her to get more than what she intended to buy? hahaha! and i got my first wedges... YES.. let me be a bimbo for this moment... LOL! since i drove down to town.. ky asked me to go woodlands to pick him up before going to yishun... apparently the guys were intending to watch movie.. but sold out.. hence, zh n i drove and send everyone to somewhere near mustafa for midnight dim sum before going to dam to talk.. left the place almost ard 4+...

saturday was iron man II with the guys and supper at Kahtib mac before cabbing back home with an uncle who resembles a taiwan celeb... HAHAHAHAHA.. i cant tear my eyes off his rear mirror... so much for nt sleeping well..

sunday was a last min impromptu meetup with ky n ____ aft fetching my bro from his camp... dinner was at cck park before going to the dam AGAIN... went to pick zh up before sitting by the dam and started unleashing the past of each others to ____... LOL... i had a total changed perception of ___ after the meetup... supper was at jln kayu before sending everyone home...

monday was FAMILY DAY with mum and bro!!!!! went jp for Ip Man II... i seriously was smitten not by donnie yen himself... but rather the spirit of chinese martial arts that Ip Man himself was really passionate about... he ended the match with a speech that totally moved me as a chinese... seriously.. i tink iron man II isnt really that fantastic after watching Ip Man II.. LOL!

i realized that i am rather critical with services especially in the f&b sector... apparently they did not have enough staff in a busy period like today, since it's public holiday.. moreover, staff were seriously under-trained... how can they walked around like nobody's business when customers are standing, waiting to be seated? tt's not all.. the service crew was a total pissed-off... how can one crew "EEYER!" so loudly in front of us when she failed to bring across the message to us that the item was sold-out? not to mention that another table of customers wanted to leave since there was nobody there to service them for more than 20 mins (as stated by the customer)... i was rather shocked with the level of service of this particular outlet and swear never again to step foot into the place again.. PUI!!

seriously i have so many things i wanna do in the holidays.. but it's just 2 weeks before another hectic semester... i wonder what lies ahead after the completion of my course... dilemma strikes at this moment was hard to ignore... =(

不想去多想多听多看。
不想去猜测什么。
不想去以为什么。

2010-04-20T19:37:00.002+08:00

Can u guess who's in the video?!

memories from the poly days... HAHAHAHA...

This showed how dumb ppl can get when they are bored.. LOL... but still appreciate his sacrifice... LOL!!

Enjoy...

2010-04-09T19:03:00.002+08:00

i totally need some help to kick myself...

I need motivation..

MOTIVATION TO GOD DAMN DO MY WORK...

.....

well anyway...

supper with the guys was all about reminiscing of the past during the poly days... man's talk was no longer heavy and serious... but filled with smiles and laughter.. plus.. HORRIBLE SINGING that totally haunt me... and i am no longer able to give nicknames.. zzzz... but that comes with certain incentives... ohohohohoho! *evil smiles*

ky's birthday was a blast!! thanks to our one and only MAU MAU TAN~~ totally she's like the master in organizing birthday celebration.. i admit... i was not doing much apart from msg-ing ppl to turn up.. but everything was done up by her la... kowtow to all her efforts!! thankiew mau mau!!

late nite chat by the dam with the guys was a big revelation... didnt noe that i was so "horrible" by saying wat's deep down in their heart... and hor... totally fooled by someone la... PUI!!! i seriously had a shock and really changed perception, but definitely much better in a way...

now all presentation boils down to the last one.. i hope we can pull through safely together...

" 去那边站!"
"christina, 你真的很 horrible/scary leh 为什么不去读 psychology?"
"WAH! Scary leh... 不要再讲了，我都有 goosebumps 了啦!"
"许姐姐! 许姐姐! 你要一时的，还是一辈子的，自己选!"
"来!我们在升key, 回忆过去，痛苦的相思忘不了。为何你还来拨动我心跳爱~~~"
"哈哈哈哈哈! 我受不了! 不要在唱了"

朋友来的来，去的去。
可是我很庆幸，
现在大家还是在一起。
未来如何我不知道。
不过现在，我希望这份友谊会一直存在。
因为我珍惜你们。

2010-03-22T21:11:00.002+08:00

the weekend just flew past with a blink of an eye.. OMG... i wonder what provided the endless energy that made me conquer all activities... LOL...

went to barrage for picnic and kite flying in the rain... All we spent most of the time was to untie the knots... in the end... we successfully flew a gigantic fish... the feeling was mystical... somehow i envy the kite for its ability to fly up high into the sky and not fearing that it will lose its way... cos... someone will be there holding the string...

After barrage... went down to butter factory to meetup with the clubbers... LOL! mau was the one who insist that i go la... LOL... *blaming others* =) and i got some facts wrong... hahaha... apparently the one was not _____ lucky ar! hahaha!

slpt for awhile before turning up for our msia trip... had korean bbq, shopping and ktv... hahaha! i was practically very stonned the moment it reached ard 6+ 7... xy's qns made me think otherwise... cos i don tink it's possible.. hahaha..

坦诚的谈话，意外的发现。
惊讶于我们的类似。
男人男人，女人女人，
都在感情的路上失足跌伤。
都很迷惑，为何当初的自以为是，如今却成了致命伤。

【感性率直型】
你是一个性情中人。如果你确实心仪对方，你会主动营造氛围，而不仅仅只是被动回应，偶尔也会有一些让对方心头一热的举动。当然，感性是带有一点冲动意味的，所以某些时候，你也许在事后会暗暗懊恼自己的轻率。但那又怎么样呢？你会在一次次的实践中慢慢修炼成一位调情高手。

2010-03-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

你何时到爱情下一站

懂得爱自己时...
　
你一旦动心，就会全力以赴，不管周围人是反对，还是支持，也不去考虑可能出现的问题，一味的把未来畅想的唯美浪漫，毫无保留的付出所有，期待永恒的回报。爱的太执着，爱一个人的心太满，注定会受伤，因为你在爱情的跑道上，只顾拼命的向前追逐，把防御的武器给丢失了，幸福自然也就不可能轻松靠岸。要提醒你的是，爱一个人只需七分就可以了，留下三分对自己好。当你懂得如何爱自己以后，才会被爱，也才会找到下一站的幸福。　

12星座忍不住的眼泪

有人说：男人哭了，就是真正爱了，女人哭了，就是真正放弃了。而一心想要更多爱，柔情似水的双鱼，若是忍不住哭了，那就一定是被爱伤透了心。对于自己喜欢的人，双鱼总是全心全意的付出所有，而对方一个温柔的笑容，就能满足他们的心。一次伤害并不能打击到双鱼对爱的追求，只有在一次又一次的期望破灭之后，对方毫不留情的转身离开之后，他们才会彻底死心，用眼泪掩饰伤口。

2010-03-15T00:42:00.003+08:00

birthday coming soon... i'm quite depressed when i realized that i'm having com 300 quiz on the actual day... totally killed the mood... and guess what? this is the first time i'm having a quiz/exam/late day for my actual birthday... -___-

anyway... due to certain requests... i have to come out with something that i wanted for my birthday... hmmm.. i donno...

if u are the practical ones.. angbaoz will do...

on the other hand, if you are uncomfortable with the practice, get me...

ceramic hair styling tools?
Miss Dior Cherie Perfume from lucky plaza (i dont mind test kit)?
Hair salon vouchers?

ps... i realized that my quiz is on tuesday!! HAHAHAHAHA.. haven break the tradition of no major test on birthday!!! WOOHOOOO~~ =)

2010-03-13T18:39:00.005+08:00

天啊!!! 也未免太巧了吧?
我居然看到白色上衣。

i was seriously shocked when i saw tt white outfit... was kinda telling myself that it wouldnt happen.. BUT.. it did... zzz...

dbl o was playing atrocious music until i wanna puke... and gals tok along the street proved to be very dangerous!! hahahaha... letting down my guard just like tt... but i noe... we are the same deep down... isnt it?

the trip back home was filled with emptiness in my head...

to sum it all up... basically i did hope that i seh-ed... but i didnt... probably cos i wasn't really drinking... hahaha! but still having frenz around to have fun and let loose was great... =)

2010-03-08T22:48:00.003+08:00

I regret the moment i said it... Damn... why i so stuuuupppiiidddd? omg.. now things looks so uncertain... the impulsive traits within me should be totally killed... and of all people i decided to tell ________... What was i thinking then?

Omg... i should juz bang myself into a clear wall... Or i should ask someone to shoot me straight and end my life...

Drop it... what can the worse situation be?

Anyway... these days have been rather lethargic. Probably due to the lack of motivation to finish up all the work that is piling up on the table... not to mention that 125 mid-term is this wed... the 125 blog entries... the research papers... and the final exams in apr... eeyer...

On a happy note... it's the first time in my life (OK... 23 yrs of my life) I WON on mahjong table... and i managed to win with a 5 tai round! hahaha.. i was super hyped that night while playing with ky, thomas and mau... mj was such an impromptu decision.. hahaha...

2010-03-07T23:10:00.004+08:00

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

2010-02-07T13:10:00.002+08:00

Man's talk...
i wonder why i do that so often?

was having an enjoyable nite out with the rest of the ppl for ktv, for dinner, for chat, for supper, for... then, reality strikes! BOOM! i have two paper this coming week...

good luck to myself...
good luck to everyone who's in the same plight as me...

unglam seems to be my tag these days... something went wrong within me... boooooooo =( i need to find back the calm and intellectual poise self... i think i should slp more.. and slp early...

2010-02-06T12:49:00.002+08:00

yes.. i changed it... cos the previous was a total mess now with distorted alignments...

and..

I AM GOING TO SING K LATER~

woohoo!

2010-02-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

拓也
不管你怎么想
你在我心中
永远
永远都是我最重要的朋友。

朋友?
我现在才发现
我最讨厌
就是你怎么说。

excuses? or they are juz not meant to be?

2010-02-05T22:50:00.004+08:00

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久

2010-01-31T21:24:00.004+08:00

it was a wild night with lot's of unexpected issues.
Glad that everyone enjoyed themselves.
A pity that there wasnt a grp foto to commemorate the no. of people who came.
But there's still next time rite?

不知道为什么会那样。
或许是心灵的放纵吧。
不想去理解只想放下所有，
好好的享受这一刻的自由。

2010-01-30T00:44:00.004+08:00

人的一生到底有多长?
人死后，剩下的到底有多少?

there was this person,
who grew up without her parents by her side.
Taken care by her aunt and never knew why her father went crazy and why her mum was always not with the family, but rather, helping out at the big house as housemaid.
Time goes by, she grew up to a fine lady and was starting out a family of her own.
However, when religion clashes, she lost her brother and stick with her husband.

Just when she has endured all the drama and starting to live her life in peace,
she gave birth to 3 children.
All boys, though naughty and gave her great deal of headache.
She was contented with her life.
Though life was rather tight on budget,
she still hang on with her family.
Giving her very best to her children.

But things went the wrong way,
she had cancer.
Just when her boys are growing up to feel the pressure of O Levels, PSLE,
she had to go for her chemotherapy.
Just when her boys started to realize that their mummy is in great pain and staying longer in the hospital,
she started losing her hair and appetite.
Just when her husband and her brother tried to mend their relationships,
she started to grow weaker and weaker and wheelchair bound.
Just when she was about to leave her beloved boys, her loving husband, her weeping family,
she said goodbye with worries and regrets.

Years later, when we decided to visit her and pay our respect, the bereavement told us that they could not contact the deceased family. They could not move her to the new place. Then, we realized that her family did not visit her after the first three years when they were mourning for her.

When i looked at her picture, i was shocked with myself.
Because I couldnt remember her looks.
All that i remembered, were tales from the relatives about her.
All i could remember was her love for her children, where she did not buy a plate of food for herself, but rather, finishing up what her children could not finish.
All i could remember was her love for her family that she took up odd jobs to meet ends, which aggravate her conditions.

one of the aunt told me the moment when she saw her picture.

"真的好凄凉。她是我唯一的表妹。可是，为什么那么命苦? 连家人都不来看她? 要搬新家了，却没人来签个名。"

i couldnt speak a word. Although i wasnt closed to her. I felt the agony.
Later then, i found out that, my other aunt dreamt that she (the deceased) telling her,

全部的人都搬走了。
只剩下我。

i felt terrible.

Cos if we didn meetup with the aunts and talked about the issue, nobody in the family will know this incident. And who knows, sooner or later, people will forget about her, just like me.

My brother n i pay our respect for her. the aunts were joking that she was happy cos young people came and visit her. but will she be really happy? mayb she was waiting for her boys and mayb her husband?

希望她的来生，不要在那么辛苦了。
为了家人，为了孩子，却独独忽略了自己。

2010-01-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

Totally fucked by the letter..

130 dollars gone...

thank you so much LTA for the new year present...

2010-01-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder what kind of image does i portray to others?
what do they really see when they see me?
what are they thinking when they interact with me?
The imbalanced personality is fighting against each other, while i sit back and look at the turmoil like an outsider, refrain from commenting and watch the drama continues...

I dont see the self worth that i am so confident about... suddenly... all thoughts came crashing down... i actually emo for a good 3 hours... and that emo-ing cost me my sleep which resulted in a sleepless night and a weird self that turned up for class on monday. I wonder what's there to emo about? I dont understand the reason for being so emo and wasting away body fluid and my precious sleep. Almost thought that my insomnia's cured, but then, it came back without a sign. I wanted to sleep, but i just couldn't... luckily it just lasted for a night. IF i am back to those days.. gosh, i think i will turn zombie.

never mind.
I guess it's all the weird thoughts that i harbored since god knows when.

Recently, people are asking whether i'm local or not.
that's weird.
which part of me does not look local?
hmmm.. worth investigating...
or is the "I am not local" look passing around from QN to Ryn and to me?
and someone commented that i looked like a "tai-tai going for a golf session in flip-flop"-_____-
Hahaha! I wish to be one though.
Is this hinting that I am/will be one someday?

Catching up with friends have been wonderful. Dinner and McFlurry turned out to be super entertaining. Hahaha! And the various shampoo talks enlightened me of my hair...

Sibling love has achieved yet another dumb stage by playing arcade like stupid young kids. i guess i was overly-hyped by the mario racing game which the winner is yours truly. HAHAHAHAHA! and my bro totally suck at racing game while i am pronounced "shooting game idiot". My mum was totally taken aback when i told her how we spent almost an hour in the arcade. Guess she will never understand what when through our minds at that time when we are playing... beats me too... i wonder what happened to me...

Uni life has become more interesting and the group grows bigger with more people joining in the fun for a good sushi buffet at Sakae in Wheelock Place. And the ambigious feelings that blossom between als n _____ leaves everybody wanting for more drama. HAHAHAHA.. oh! not to forget the battle between the Temasek and Chai Chee over the SBS bus...

Life is great till now..
and i know it will be better.

2010-01-08T13:32:00.002+08:00

great..
second day and i kind of regret the snap...
but...
oh well...
at least i cut away the disgusting ends....
and qn...
my hair is shorter than urs now LOL!

tt aside...
skool is starting soon...
which marks the end of my totally wasted holidays...
i haf been slping since 4am till 12nn for the past 2 weeks?
i guess my insomnia's cured...
cos i can slp more than 7 hrs LOL!
watching shows that has no substance but to let me lauff/cry/curse like crazy...
yup..
that sums up my holidays...
=)

2010-01-02T03:18:00.003+08:00

omg... i cant believe that the first day of the year...
i got my FIRST SUMMON since i started driving...
Zzzz...

anyway... that apart...
was at Xiao pang's place for his house warming earlier on during new year's day and proceed to yishun for dao huay with the guys before returning home... photo taking was really cool! xiao pang's mum really cute la... hahahaha!

went to sembawang shopping center for lunch before going over to my aunt's place... had aston specialties, not bad though.. at least i tink it's value for money... dinner was at IMM Aji Tei for ramen.. and their volcano ramen was cool, not spicy, but too salty for me.. new year's eve was spent with a impromptu desire to watch the yearly fireworks at marina... almost couldnt find a place to park but lucky the brainy me asked my bro to park at suntec and walked over... supper was at Mac in Queensway b4 sending my aunt back...

everywhere was full of people... full of screams... full of wishes and hope for a better year... hopefully i can achieve the aims that i have made...

2009-12-28T02:15:00.003+08:00

The recent me at a nearby coffeeshop...
guess life is alittle random for me these days...
and my results... like shit....
i guess i haf to forgo all fun n play for the coming sem...
boohoo...

2009-12-12T23:30:00.003+08:00

Finally something to spice up my life... LOL...

was kay poh-ing when i heard screams from below... den i realize that a couple was screaming at each other at the multi-storey carpark...

guess wat?

the guy was shouting and cursing at the gal (apparently siao already) and the gal walked towards the car ignoring the guy (stupid rite? still wanna go out in such a state? don understand her). and then... the guy was screaming at the top of his voice before entering the car and drove off...

u think the story ends here?

hell no...

part II
(hahahaha.. the kay poh genes in me manifested... and prompt me to stand by the window to watch wat happen while waiting for the rest of the family to get ready)

apparently when the car reached the next level, the guy turn berserk and came out of the car and tried to pull the gal out of the passenger seat... he didn managed to do it and was returning to the driver seat (still f-king away, screaming at the top of his voice...).

guess wat?

the gal was smart enough to lock him out of the car!!

hahahaha.. the guy totally went crazy and started slamming the car, jumping around like a clown, while continuing his curse and swear, demanding the gal to unlock the car. i guess the gal did not have license la... she drove the car like a few inches... den the guy went with the car (of cos la.. is his car wat) and continue slamming the doors, demanding the gal to come out...

by den, people are coming out of their house to watch the whole episode... but i lost interest while my bro went over to the lift lobby to have a better view (see?! kay poh genes not only in me... it runs in the family.. LOL!) and according to my bro.. the gal did unlock the car and the guy throw his shoe at her... before pushing her back into the car and drove off... shouting can still be heard, and police car was in the multi-storey carpark driving up... but apparently the couple went off before the police reached them... cos when we went to retrieve our car, the police car was descending down from the carpark...

how stupid is the gal at the first place? why did she bother to climb up all the stairs to retrieve the car when the guy was already screaming at her when they were at the bottom of the carpark? next... why didn she walked away from the guy and stupid enough to board the car, and endure his scoldings? lastly... when she's alone in the car, why didn she ramp the car into the walls? apparently she did try to drive away.. but i doubt she has license... the guy was totally gone case when he was locked out of the car... never noe wat happened between, but seriously i tink the guy shouldnt throw his shoes at him.. and the gal shouldnt unlock the car. the guy was in the state of berserk and he might harm her... and he did (hitting her with his shoes, shoving her back into the car). if i was her, i guess i might juz drove off, leaving the guy behind, or if i totally canot dahan... haaha.. slam the car into the walls.

seriously... why bother to go out when u guys are quarreling? u will only disgrace urself in public wat... why wanna go out with a crazy guy who juz keep screaming at his top of the voice? and the gal was stupid enough to still bother to endure his nonsense... i guess wat my dad said was right, both were 半斤八两。

2009-12-03T14:10:00.002+08:00

in the midst of the battle with the book... tsk...

The guy said
"how long do i have to wait for her to accept me? T_T
being pretty isnt everything-_-"

and the girl was thinking:
(1st thought bubble)>"was i too hard on him?;;"
(2nd thought bubble)"if you keep looking at him he's cute"
(3rd)"did i fall for him too easily?=3="

and then guy thinks
" who should i try&get next time?
LeeHyoRi?:)"

2009-11-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

wooot....

totally love CL!!
She's the one with the long hair...
chio leh...

2009-11-28T14:01:00.002+08:00

was supposed to be a pleasant day for a family day out...

but some shithead ruin the day...

bloody fucked when we saw the scratches at the front bumper... people are fucking inconsiderate... donno how to drive.. den don drive.. wanna drive.. don cause unnecessary troubles for others... super irritated when our car's scratched.. and the culprit cant be found..

this is even worst den when i scratched my own car..

bless the culprit with a year long of accidents...

2009-11-21T14:34:00.003+08:00

卓文萱+Q&A: 真相大白

五六零年代他还只是一个大小孩
骑着伟士牌後座载着心仪的女孩
这样的情窦初开迎着春风吹来
在纯朴的小村庄恋爱传了开

简单的旋律
琅琅上口的歌曲

she made me think of Selina...
probably cos the song reminds me 你是我心里的一首歌

2009-11-19T20:52:00.004+08:00

Zzzzz...

Sounds familiar? well, the song was originally sung by Uhm Jung Hwa featuring TOP from Bigbang mid 2008.... the song was remade by Gdragon and YG family for her comeback then in Jun 2008...

and now... it comes to Landy... i guess i prefer the original Korean version... though the strings movement in the middle was really nicely incorporated... way to go LANDY!

and Uhm Jung Hwa was 38 when she sang this last yr...

zzz...

溫嵐Landy-DISCO MV(Dancing Queen)

2009-11-07T23:36:00.004+08:00

Big Bang - 声をきかせて

It seems like a breathe of fresh air into their usual style of singing...
Enjoy..

2009-11-06T20:16:00.001+08:00

distraction by talking...

fuck...

tt sums up the day...